Have you ever felt so scattered and chaotic but organized and put together at the same time? That’s me right now I think.
I feel like I’ve got a few golden roads all paved for me and it’d all be so easy if I just composed myself, pulled myself together, and got on with my life. But how am I supposed to choose which road I want? I’m still [supposedly] so young and have so much time left and I’m supposed to pick a [very expensive] path to start on…
But what happens if I change my mind and don’t like where I’m headed? but it’s too late to go back and would be to much of a waste of time and energy I’ve already put into one path…?
Apartment life is treating me well I think. I like being away but still close. I like the independence but miss the closeness. Maybe that’s why I beg him to stay so long…I miss those family-like relationships…I’m to eager to start mine even with my many experiences of crappy relationships-I’m so eager to start my own life with someone else because I believe it will be the glue to just hold me all together. Honestly, it’ll be like a rock [in my head].
the irony of my faith in some things rather than my faith in myself astonishes me. I’m to hopefully, positive, and closed-minded when it comes to others…
I’ve got all the tools to ‘get the ball rolling’ with my life, but there’s this wall…and I don’t know why.
♫ And if I broke your heart last night it’s because I love you most off all ♫
this… … .
perfectly summed up.
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